By Kaylynn Kasandra

This episode has me feeling so many things. If I were to be completely honest, the thing that concerns me most is how they are trying to make Creepy Cal likeable. We learned in the past seasons that Steve wasn’t the gloriously perfect leader the Meyerists like to believe. Cal has slowly come to terms with Steve’s inappropriate behavior towards him while he was growing up. To the outside world, Cal was the golden boy and apple of Steve’s eye, but things were far more sinister behind closed doors. Even if you’re not a fan of Cal, this is very hard to stomach. I can see how he became the sociopathic creep that we see now.

I am nearly a thousand percent sure that Cal isn’t being sincere in his new developing relationship with Eddie. I think it’s pretty clear by Cal’s past behavior that his manipulation has no bounds. I think all the nice things he has said about, as well as to, Eddie is playing into whatever plan he has for his takeover. And to be quite honest, while he was using his own trauma to blackmail Vera I had a hunch she was his abuser’s daughter. She isn’t actually invested in the religion of the movement, but her reaction was quite defensive of Steve. Thus, giving me confirmation before the actual reveal came later in the episode.

We were also able to see that the creepy bondage punishment that Sara has been so obsessed with was filmed in its early stages. And who was the one being punished in the film? None other than the founder of Meyerism himself, Steve. Proof that even he knew of his unnatural and inappropriate urges before inflicting them upon Cal. And it seems that Lilith, Vera’s mom, was the one trying to help him resist such urges. Even if she claims she never knew what the urge actually was. But the bombshell I found most interesting in all this was Sara’s mom’s claims that Lilith was a basketcase. I have a feeling that the comment she made is foreshadowing things to come. It could very well be linked to Eddie and Cal’s shared vision of the Meyerist bodies seen in the woods. Let’s hope that Vera grows a pair and abandons whatever crazy her mom may be a part of.

We see some other plot developments start this episode as well. It seems as though the interfaith leadership connection Joy made isn’t what she thought. The guy who she was giving goo-goo eyes to was doing the same to Hawk?! I have to say that really surprised me. I didn’t catch any clues leading up to that at all. It seems that Hawk didn’t either, but it’s hard to say if he is into it or not. We see him stand up for Joy and tell loverboy that it was not cool for him to ghost his dear old cousin the way he did. But, was that just his way of channeling his aggravation from not being able to speak to him alone about that kiss they shared? I guess we are going to have to wait on that. Meanwhile poor Joy seems to be approaching a serious rough patch between her broken heart and now her parents impending broken marriage. It should be interesting if this is what finally opens her eyes to the world the way Hawk’s have been opened.

Overall, I am not sure things will be very positive for the Meyerists this season. All the secrets and skeletons in everyone's closet are going to be exposed. It seems as though Sara is finally seeing things for what they are and not the rose colored way she was brought up. It’s been interesting to see her and Eddie swap positions this season. I still don’t think her relationship with the professor is going to work in her favor though. She is way too trusting of this guy. She all but told him Meyerism’s biggest secret. The idea that movement could quite possibly have been built on lies and as she put it, “the urges of a sick man”. Yikes. This is not going to end well. I fear that Eddie will be addressing this scandal a lot sooner than anyone thought. Or God forbid, Cal uses Eddie’s new position as his son’s “spiritual father” against him. I would not put it past creepy Cal to accuse Eddie of doing the very thing that Steve did to him. I really hope I’m wrong about that.